Ive been trying to figure out exactly what to say about photographing my friend’s Rachel and Andrew’s son Samuel’s birth. It was the kind of experience that you need to digest and sit with for a little while to wrap your mind around it. Honestly, nearly 2 months later, I still don’t know what to say. Here is the best I’ve got:
At 4:00am, while sleeping after driving back from Boston having photographed Marie and Mike’s engagement session, I got a phone call from Andrew. “It’s time,” he said with a lot of joy in his voice. Groggy but with a racing heartbeat, I jumped out of bed and started getting ready. Dan helped me pack a camera bag, thankfully since I was kind of acting like a lunatic. I drove to the hospital and walked in a room with two VERY calm human beings, and two rightfully calm nurses. In the span of 1 hour from the time I arrived, little baby Samuel was born. Rachel is a true birthing rockstar, blowing my mind with how calm, collected and poised she was the entire time.
Obviously I can’t speak for Rachel or Andrew about the experience, nor do I want to divulge the whole story of this very private event here on this very public blog. What I CAN do is tell you the impact it made on me. This was the first birth I have ever witnessed. Although I was super nervous and it pained me to see my friend in pain, it was so so SO beautiful. Bear with me here but dare I say this was also so ROMANTIC! Watching Andrew worry about Rachel and tend to her was something I knew happened at births but I just had never realized how romantic a birth experience can be. Additionally, I got to witness my friend Rachel go through the process of becoming a lioness roaring through pain and being so powerful! Who EVER says women are weak can just bite me. Rachel amazed me. I was in awe. I was crying my eyes out. She really was glowing, like they say. I never really believed that but she really was. I know this may sound crazy but if you know me you wont think it is… God was in the room. I could feel his presence. I could see his artistry. He was more real to me in that room that morning, than most other times in my life.
I am so grateful they had me with them and that I could take these photographs for them to remember what it was like when Samuel entered this world, with his parents, the nurses and midwife, me, and God in the room. Thank you to Rachel and Andrew for letting me share these images.